so tired

just got back from reno. lots of money was lost between us guys but I was the only one to come out even

more later...

I cant believe its been soooo long since Ive been on here but now that Im on I have so much to say that I wont!  I will say that Im thankful for everyone whos been in my life, my 360 and outside my 360.  Im thankful for my job, my house, my cars, my toys and a beautiful woman who I will spend the rest of my life with.

To the fams, I could not be who I am without each and everyone of you.  To my friends, my heart goes to each of you who keep my grounded, offer a shoulder, an ear, your whole hearts.  Especially to my STN family, Prime Image family and my brothers and sisters in blue, I love you.

I had the most amazing time today in the city volunteering at Canyon Kip Center in the SOMA serving the veterans, the homeless and the less fortunate.  One smile is all it took when SF's finest and I from various stations handed out Thanksgiving meals.  What a blessing, what a life.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL, GOD BLESS. I LOVE YOU FOR BEING IN MY LIFE!

MAN IM TIRED... SEEMS LIKE THE SAME OL STORY ALL THE TIME. SAME PARTY, DIFFERENT DAY. WELL, AFTER GOING THROUGH A MIND BOGGLING 55 PROSPECTIVE JURORS, WE HAVE FINALLY SELECTED A JURY TODAY, MADE OPENING STATEMENTS AND BEGUN TRIAL TESTIMONIES.  IM SO EXCITED.  I LOVE SEEING THE OPPOSITION SHAKE AND WONDER WHAT COMES NEXT AS I MAKE ARGUMENT AFTER ARGUMENT.  I ESPECIALLY LOVE SEEING THE DEFENSE ATTORNEY'S NOD THERE HEAD LIKE, "OMG, WHAT NEXT?"  HAHA, OH MAN...

AND THE FUNNIEST THING HAPPENED.  EVIDENTLY, WE WILL BE IN RECESS ON MONDAY DUE TO THE FACT THE JUDGE WAS SUMMONED FOR JURY DUTY! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, GO FIGURE... IM SURE HE WILL BE DEFERRED BUT IT JUST GOES TO SHOW U NOONE IS EXEMPT, WELL EXCEPT COPS! FOR OBVIOUS REASONS...  SO, HOPEFULLY WE'LL GET TO WRAP THIS UP AND DELIVER THE CASE TO THE JURY BY TUESDAY AND HAVE A DECISION MADE LICKETY SPLIT.  IM SURE THEY'LL DO THERE JOB JUST FINE... REALLY IS A NO BRAINER W/ ALL THE EVIDENCE WE PRODUCED! (CROSSING FINGERS!!)

SO..........CHIELO AND I HAD DINNR IN THE CASTRO LAST NITE, OF ALL PLACES.  WE JUST DROVE AROUND THE HAIGHT DISTRICT, WHICH I NEVER DO AND JUST ENDED UP THERE AFTER DETOURING FOR A WHILE.  WE ATE A SOME JAPANESE PLACE WHICH WAS SURPRISINGLY GOOD.  I ASKED THE WAITRESS TO JUST SURPRISE ME W/ DINNER AND SHE DID AN EXCELLENT JOB.  LEAVE IT TO ME TO BE DIFFICULT BUT SHE FED ALRITE! GOOD FOR HER... STRANGE THING WAS I SAW CAT, MY OLD BUD PAVEL'S LITTLE SISTER.  I REMEMBERED HER BECAUSE WE USED TO RUN TRACK TOGETHER IN HS.  THAT WAS FUNNY, IT REALLY IS JUST A SMALL WORLD AFTER ALL. 

WELL, ITS NEARLY A NEW DAY AND AS TIRED AS I AM, IM STILL AWAKE.  BUT IVE GOT TO TRY AND REST FOR ANOTHER DAY OF COURT AWAITS AND PLUS, IVE GOTTA SAVE SOME ENERGY TO SEE MY IMMIJLADIES! LOL MAN, I MISS THEM SO MUCH!! HOPEFULLY I CAN MUSTER UP THE STRENGTH TO SEE THEM. IF NOT, NO BIGGIE SUNDAY IS ONLY A COUPLE MORE DAYS AWAY. THATS ALL.....

OH MAN IM DREADING TODAY.  NOTHING HEAVIER THAN 150 AT THE GYM TODAY IN EVERY EXCERCISE.  I WANTED TO KEEP IT REALLY LIGHT CUZ I HAVE A TOUGH WEEKEND AHEAD OF ME AND I NEED TO CONSERVE SOME ENERGY.  BUT I SHOULDNT HAVE RUN TO MUCH OR WORKED ON ABS FOR AN HOUR... I KNOW IMMA PAY FOR THAT AS SOON AS I GET OUT OF THE SHOWER AND MUSCLES START GETTING TIGHT AGAIN!  U KNOW, THERE WAS A TIME 4 YEARS AGO WHEN ALL I DID WAS DREAM ABOUT SPENDING 12 HRS IN SOME HOLE SHOOTING AND BLOWING UP STUFF IN 120DEGREE WEATHER.  NO I DONT! LOL, I JUST WANNA CURL UP IN BED AND GET 12 HRS OF SLEEP! HAHA

OH WELL, WE'LL SEE HOW MY SHOULDER HOLDS UP THIS WEEKEND AFTER THIS TRAINING.  IM ALMOST ALL PACKED.  EXTRA BOXERS, 2 CASES OF AMMO, ENOUGH GUNS TO FILL UP MY DENALI AND TONS OF WATER!!! OH MAN, IM GONNA BE DRENCHED.  OUR TEAM IS EXCITED TO GO ALL THE WAY UP NORTH BUT WE'LL SEE HOW WE REACT TO 110 IN THE SHADE.  OK, ENOUGH OF THAT, JUST THINKING ABOUT A WEEKEND TRAINING IN TRIPLE DEGREE HEAT IS MAKING ME SWEAT.  SO I'LL JUST FINISH PACKING AND GET READY FOR WORK CUZ ANOTHER 30 HR DAY AWAITS ME.  14 AT WORK THEN STRAIGHT UP TO PLACERVILLE TO MEET THE REST OF THE GUYS, THEN STRAIGHT TO THE TRAINING FACILITY.  PRAY FOR ME, LOL!

SEE YA'LL NEXT WEEK.............

WELL, ANOTHER BROTHER IN BLUE HAS DIED AND IS NOW IN A BETTER PLACE.  IT WAS AN EMOTIONAL FUNERAL.  IN MY FOUR YEARS I'VE GONE TO MORE THAN I'VE EVER WANTED TO.  LYN AND I TALKED LAST NITE AND IT TURNS OUT SHE KNEW OFFICER NIEMI AS WELL.  SHE USED TO SERVE HIS COFFEE WHEN SHE WORKED NIGHTS.  ITS AMAZING THAT IT TOOK THAT HORRIBLE INCIDENT FOR US TO BOND LIKE WE DID LAST NITE.  MY EYES SWELLED UP AS SHE CRIED TO ME.  AGAIN FEELING HELPLESS, I JUST WANTED TO HUG HER AND HOLD ON TO HER TO TELL HER IT'LL BE ALRIGHT.  NOW I TRULY KNOW SHE FEELS MY PAIN AND IS ONE OF VERY FEW WHO REALLY UNDERSTANDS HOW I FEEL.  I MYSELF, COINCIDENTALLY MET OFFICER DAN NIEMI AT THE LAST POLICE OFFICER'S FUNERAL I ATTENDED.  WE SPOKE BRIEFLY AT ATTENTION JUST LONG ENOUGH TO GET INTRODUCED, EXCHANGE STORIES AND INFORMATION WITH EACHOTHER BEFORE HEARING THE COMMAND OF "PARADE REST" AS THE FALLEN OFFICER'S CASKET PASSED US.  ITS SO HARD TO KNOW THAT IT REALLY IS A SMALL WORLD.  IVE DECIDED AFTER MY FIRST OFFICER'S FUNERAL THAT I WOULD UPDATE MY WILL AFTER EACH ONE.  I'M STILL IN THE PROCESS OF DOING THAT, I JUST STARTED THIS MORNING.  YOU NEVER KNOW, YOU NEVER REALLY EVER KNOW...

WORK HAS BEEN REALLY TOUGH LATELY.  IVE BEEN DOING A TON OF TRAINING LATELY AND ITS TOUGH BECAUSE IM STILL HURT.  I DONT THINK MY SHOULDER HAS FULLY HEALED YET AND THAT'S WHY I CANT RETURN TO THE GYM.  IT WAS MY FIRST DAY BACK AT THE GYM TODAY AFTER A 4DAY REST WHICH FELT LIKE AN ETERNITY.  SURPRISINGLY, I WAS ABLE TO PICKUP WHERE I LEFT OFF WELL, ASIDE FROM HEAVY LIFTING ON SHOULDERS, I DID OKAY. BUT IM STILL TIRED ALL THE TIME.  I GO BACK TO WORK TOMORROW NITE AND THURSDAY NITE, THEN OFF TO SHINGLE SPRINGS FRIDAY MORNING FOR MORE TACTICAL TRAINING.  I HOPE MY SHOULDER DOESNT FALL OFF CUZ IT'S GONNA BE LIKE THIS, TRAINING HARD ALL MONTH AND INTO SEPTEMBER.

IM BUILDING MYSELF UP.  IVE BEEN DOING ALOT OF THINKING LATELY AND DALY CITY IS NOT WHERE I WANT TO END UP.  IVE SPENT ENOUGH TIME HERE AND ITS TIME TO MOVE ON.  IM THINKING OF MOVING OVER TO THE SHERIFFS OFFICE AND MAKING THAT MOVE IN THE NEAR FUTURE.  INSTEAD OF ONE CITY, ILL WORK THE WHOLE COUNTY, WHICH IS ONE OF THE LARGEST COUNTIES IN THE GREATER BAY AREA.  ILL MAKE MORE MONEY AND HAVE MORE OPPORTUNITIES TO CLIMB THE LADDER.  IT WILL ALSO FORCE ME TO MOVE OUT OF THIS FOG WHICH I HATE SO MUCH SINCE MY HEADQUARTERS WILL BE IN REDWOOD CITY.  MAYBE ILL GO BACK TO THE EAST BAY WHERE THE SEASONS ACTUALLY CHANGE. THAT WOULD BE NICE.  AND SINCE IVE BEEN ABLE TO GET BACK ON THE CREDIT TRACK AND JUST PAY OFF EVERYTHING AS MUCH I CAN LATELY.  IVE MANAGED TO SHELL OUT 4K THIS MONTH SPECIFICALLY FOR CREDIT CARD BILLS AND IM DOWN TO ABOUT 6K NOW... SUCKS I KNOW BUT IF I KEEP IT UP FOR THE NEXT 2 MONTHS ILL BE CLEAR AND I KNOW WITH THAT SMART MOVE I KNOW THAT I CAN STILL AFFORD THE HUGE HOUSES IN ELK GROVE, STOCKTON, BRENTWOOD, ANTIOCH, OR MY PERSONAL FAVORITE, DISCOVERY BAY AFTER ALL.

I CANT JUSTIFY SPENDING 800K+ ON A 2BED 1BATH HOUSE HERE IN THE PENINSULA WHEN I CAN SPEND 450-550K IN ANY OF THOSE ABOVE CITIES AND SCORE A 5+BED 3+BATH HOUSE MINIMUM! ITS ABSOLUTELY RIDICULOUS.  PLUS WITH A HOUSE LIKE THAT, WE CAN GET MARRIED SOONER AND AS SOON AS WE GET MARRIED, THE SOONER WE CAN FILL UP THAT HOUSE WITH LITTLE SOLDIERS!! HOOAH

ANYWAY, THESE ARE STILL THOUGHTS BUT IM LOOKING TO MAKE THEM ALL REALITY SOON ENOUGH.  BUT TO GET TO WORK AND PERFORM WLL, YOU GOTTA SLEEP SO THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT IM GONNA DO.  HIT THE HAY THEN HIT THE GROUND RUNNING AT WORK.